Life is Changing

So, I am leaving for Salt Lake City in just over 4 weeks. It is kind of insane to think that this point in my life has FINALLY come. I have been planning this move for over a year now, and its finally upon me. The final countdown is about to begin.

However, during this time of much change, a lot of controversy has overcome me. Do I go to school, or do I take another year off? Do I get a job, or take lots of loans? Do I go to UVU, or somewhere else? Do I even go to Utah, or Idaho, or somewhere else? There are lots of questions running through my mind. Now, let me reassure you, because I know you were wondering, that they are not doubts. Just concerns that I have when I turn this new chapter in my life!

I am excited however, to live with my cousin Josh. We have talked about living with eachother and going to school together since we were little boys. Growing up with Josh has been a great blessing for me, and the foundation we have built not just as cousins but friends, has been awesome. I look forward to the new experiences we will have together and grow as people.

I am excited to see old friends and make new friends. I am excited to make a big step in my life, and follow through with it. I am very excited to just be moving on in my life, instead of just living day to day and taking it for granted. I am taking a risk, and as its been said, "the biggest risk of all is not taking any." I could not agree with that saying more. One will never know what they are missing, if they never try it.

I will miss all my friends in Washington and Oregon. I have made so many great friends here throughout the years, it will be hard to leave. However, I do not intend on leaving you behind. You all have meant so much to me, and will continue to be my friends until the day I die. And even after that too! WHAT A DEAL! I hope that some of you will come and visit me in SLC. It really is a great place. No matter what some may think.

This time is becoming more stressful, but i anticipate that stress will pay off. I cannot wait to begin the "new life" I have in front of me, and hope to live it to its fullest!

Honor Life

One can only do so much

For those they hold so dear

Listen and respond to them

Ease away each and every fear

One day they will answer back

They’ll show you that they care

But what if that day won’t come

Because they say life just ain’t fair

Each time you look into their eyes

Look for the aching in their heart

Pain is hidden in all of us

Waiting for the healing just to start

Unseen is the hand of despair

The awful might of gloomy fate

Can often be directed away

To what is a more friendly state

Loneliness consumes us all at times

It overruns our deepest thoughts

The evil it projects inside our minds

Reflects all our fights we fought

However its power is small

Control is does not need to obtain

With love and compassion from one

Enough to fuel and sustain

A life of love and fulfillment

With friends at each turning way

Can rid us of the evil

That we encounter each and every day

We do not have to shorten

The privilege we have been given

Of life on earth we know so well

A life that we need to must be driven

By friendship and companions

Always at our beckoning call

Ready to aid us in our situation

Ready to pick us up after we fall

When those people are no longer there

We reach out to find another course

And it might not be the best of choices

One that would cause only remorse

A life ending shorter than expected

Is something we cannot bare to feel

Our hearts sink to the lowest pits

An emotion one is not meant to feel

Goodbyes are the hardest things to say

Along with grieving in regret

Of what you wanted to say before

Their soul is one you might forget

Don’t lose the image of those you love

Listen to your hearts impressions

To act upon whatever you feel

Before they meet the next dimension

Death is a barrier between two beings

Closely connected hear in our stay

Communication is not simple

But there is another way

Hold their life in the highest manor

Honor their accomplishments on high

Realize they have done good to you

And don’t forget to say good-bye

Your Smile

Watching as you smile towards me
Makes my heart jump with glee
Listening to your joyful sound
What I’ve looked for I have found

Someone like you to show me the light
The way to stand up and give a fight
You let me into your lonesome world
And all our problems came unfurled

Every time I hold your close beside
There are things I feel I just can’t hide
You lay your head down onto my chest
A moment that has become the very best

Priceless its nature has become
The union of two making one
We can make it through it all
As long as we don’t stumble and fall

Some things happen you can’t explain
The hearts way of losing pain
They happen when you least expect
To find that one you most respect

Almost like you fell into my arms
A person I could do to no harm
A glorious aura I feel so much
Every time your face I touch

With me is where I hope you stay
With each and every passing day
My heart will always jump with glee
When I see your smile towards me

RIP Luke Pearson

Today, I received news that I never thought I would hear in my entire life.

The life of one of my dear high school friends and peers, ended his own life prematurely. Luke Pearson, may you find peace in the place you now lie.

I do not know what made Luke feel so empty, so alone, so completely lost that there was no one there for you. I don't even have any finite details, just speculation and words being spread. But Luke, I do know this. You were a great person. You were a smart thinker. You were are hard worker. You were a dedicated individual. You had a future. You were lively and ambitious. Your personality was sought after. You, Luke Pearson, were my friend.

My prayers, thoughts and sorrows go out to the Pearson family. My heart sinks to hear the news of such a son of God being lost so tragically.

I am so completely confused by this situation, that to try and write something feels almost impossible. I never would have thought Lucas Pearson's life was going so awry that it wasn't worth living. It goes to show that life is fragile. Enjoy your moments with people. You never know if it will be the last time you ever see them again.

Luke, I will always remember our times on the street playing dunk basketball. The times in the winter, where I would come over, we would shovel the snow off of Alex Bergerons driveway just to play ball. You always jumped higher than us both! I still have the dvd you and Alex made of the three of us. The times at your house playing video games upstairs and getting killed. The ping pong battles. Swimming at your house. Not four months ago, playing basketball at the church. Watching you catch your TD pass against Washougal Senior year. Making fun of your Minnesota accent. Mentioning your modeling career at basketball practice.

Luke, we had so many great memories. I only wish there could have been more. I only wish you could have found that missing piece in your life. I only hope you will rest easy now. May the Lord bless you and your family forever! Luke Pearson, Rest in Peace.